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When medical issues affect one's ability to do art
Haven't been able to draw or paint or quilt or write poems lately. Hense, I haven't posted any of it for awhile.
My back issue go back to the 90s, that got worse about 3 years ago, I need to use a cane most days.my mental health hasn't been great for a few decades but it has its happy times and scraping skin days and insomniac nights. Lately to add onto all of this is something new.. arthrtis. The pain is so horrific at times, it obiliterates the days I am having happy. Now the change in weather hasn't friggen helped, and pain management becomes the secondary interruption to doing art. I can't stand for very long before my back is painfully
DeviantArtist Questionnaire
How long have you been on DeviantArt?
I have been here since technically april 1 2003
What does your username mean?
my user name which i Haven't changed since I got here is a combination of two names from two different book characters that I love. Arwen from Lord of the rings and Pandora from anne rice's book Pandora. They both live a long time and have witnessed love and loss.
Describe yourself in three words.
introvert, insomniac, activist
Are you left or right handed?
mostly right but I have do left
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What is your favourite type of art to create?
portraits mostly but I do love abstract and sometimes photogr
Not good enough
I know some of you may have felt like this at various points in your lives. most of my life I have been made to feel this way from family and so called friends. I try not to expect much from people.. past experience brutality taught me not to have expectations in most people around me but they didn't think I was worth their effort or their time.. yet they didn't understand that I ignorantly put them on a pedestal, just giving them respect that never really deserved.
I have left many family and friends behind because I was put through too much, I walked way permanently from many people I used to call friends because I was their doormat. One
Abuse, trauma, and PTSD
I have been told over the past few decades to pull myself up by my bootstraps (a way for those who don't understand what I have been through to cope with hearing what I have told them). Well over the years I have pulled my preverbal bootstraps up to a point I have done nothing but choke on them. I have been told to "let it go" "get over it", to "move on", or "it's in the past" or the classic "there are people in this world who have it worse than you".
at some point in all of our lives we have experienced abuse at the hands or verbal of someone that sticks in our minds. Just when we thought we have felt with the memory or it and thought it w
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thank you for doing you art. I agree with you.. the other thing I realized years ago was how people, who don't seem to care what they are doing to harm the planet and in inhabitants, get angry towards us and blame it all on us.. somewhat the same mentality as a domestic abuser would hit their victim and then ask them… why do you make me hit you and then get further angry at you for fighting back. but the moment you have gotten the strength to shock them with standing up for yourself and you hurt them back, they cry or shake or accuse you of being the bully. that is when you have to walk away from them because they will never evolve in this lifetime. refocus our time and energy on the defenceless.